heh i watched 'The Coffin' with the C Div girls! hoooray for bonding session! althought many people didn't come. i dont quite seem to understand the show. and the scary thing is that face! oh the horror.

ok moving on with things. NOWNOWNOWNOWNOWNOW. today. was ERR i can call a sort of F. day. well i started off with reading a very interesting novel. and got stuck with it till lunch. not exactly. i woke up at 12 and lunch was at 1. okay, an hour. read half of the book. came back up and read 3/4 of the book already. i'd say its a WONDERFUL book!

wasn't feeling too well. so i was rude to my mother. forgive me. this happens alot. then dinner came. i was stuck with reading the book again. till mother came up to call me down. this was when it began.

i ate finish my dinner. mother came out with a pot of satay sticks that looked uncooked. and asked me to eat it. i wasn't too sure of the looks so i just simply told her ' can you cook it somemore ' and she replied in a offensive manner saying that i wasn't talking to her nicely. blablablabla. i had to control. i did not mention a single word through out the whole entire thing. then i drank my soup and was full and walked up. she was unhappy and said you dont want to eat my food is it. LIKE YOU'RE SO BIG. I TOLD YOU I WAS FULL. DIDN'T I. I SAID IT NICELY. YOU DIDN'T HAVE TO SHOUT AT ME! okay nevermind. i control and went back down and waited for your SATAY to come out. the father said. YOU HAVE A TOO GOOD LIFE. PEOPLE GIVE YOU FOOD YOU CHOOSEY DONT WANT TO EAT RIGHT. NEVERMIND. YOU DONT EAT. wth? I SAID I WAS FULL ALREADY! and you continue shitting on me? SAYING THAT YOU'RE ASHAMED THAT IM YOUR FLESH AND BLOOD. (didn't really say that) but still you said you were ashamed to tell people about me, your children. that we weren't any better then your friend's kids. that they were much better then we were. My tears started flowing alright. AND I DID NOT SAY ONE WORD AT ALL. and you continue about money. saying i didnt know how to spend it wisely. AND MOTHER. PLEASE I REALLY CANNOT STAND YOU ANYMORE. PLEASE GET YOUR FACTS RIGHT BEFORE SAYING ANYTHING. AND SHUT YOUR MOUTH WHERE EVER POSSIBLE. i know its harsh. BUT I REALLY CANNOT STAND YOU ANYMORE ALRIGHT. ITS NOT THAT I HATE YOU OR ANYTHING. ITS JUST THAT WHEN YOU TALK TO ME ITS LIKE YOU'RE TRYING TO SAY THAT YOU'RE ALWAYS RIGHT AND THAT IM WRONG. WHEN EVER I CORRECT YOU ON SOMETHING YOU JUST GET FED UP AND SAY ITS MY FAULT. AND YOU TALK SO LOUDLY THAT EVERYONE IN THE NEIGHBOURHOOD CAN HEAR YOU AND FATHER WOULD START TO SCOLD ME. I REALLY FEEL LIKE STRANGLING YOU EVERYDAY. I CANNOT STAND THIS KIND OF PEOPLE. AND YOU GO ON SAYING THAT I SPEND MONEY ANYHOW. alright i do. BUT ON FOOD! and pencil cases. why cant i get new ones? MINE BROKE. DENTED. SPOILED. so what if brother's pencil case is old and broken and he hasn't changed it since primary school. ITS HIS CHOICE FOR NOT CHANGING. maybe he saved his money to buy some WRESTLING CARDS OR SOME GAMES THAT'S WORTH OVER $50. WHY DO YOU ALWAYS BLAME ME. AND YOU PEOPLE ARE ASHAMED TO HAVE ME AS YOUR KID. have it your way ok. im different from your friend's children. WE ALL ARE. AND I HATE IT WHEN YOU, OF ALL PEOPLE. COMPARE US/ME TO YOUR FRIEND'S CHILDREN!! NOBODY IS PERFECT OK. WE EXCEL IN DIFFERENT THINGS. THEY EXCEL IN STUDIES I EXCEL IN SPORTS. WE ARE DIFFERENT FOR CRYING OUT LOUD!!!

there for. you made me go up to my room. and crying in bed. all night long. i knocked my head on the wall too many times that i passed out. i told some people not to call and talk to me anymore. i really hated you. I CANT BELIEVE YOU SAID THAT. and you criticised me. when you didn't even get to know me. you didn't know what i did all those things. SAYING THATI HAD THE NERVE TO DO SUCH THINGS. WTH IS WRONG WITH YOU. IM YOUR CHILD. I'VE FACED PRESSURE AND STRESS TOO. SO WHAT IF YOU'VE STUDIED AND WORKED AT THE SAME TIME. TIMES HAVE CHANGED. IM GROWN UP LIKE OTHER KIDS NOW! I REALLY HATE YOU NOW. REALLY REALLY HATE YOU. YOU SAID I WAS STUPID. AND DUMB. OBNOXIOUS. AND NOW YOU ARE ASHAMED TO HAVE ME. I CANT BRING MYSELF TO TRUST ANYONE ANYMORE! SO FOR THE LAST TIME.

GET YOUR FACTS RIGHT BEFORE SCOLDING ME AND DONT! DONT EVER COMPARE YOUR CHILDREN WITH YOUR FRIEND'S. ITS JUST UNFAIR! AND SELF CONCIOUS!