im sick and tired of being left out! i really cannot stand it anymore. the urge to cry is starting to increase. why do i have to be the one sitting alone everytime. the last one to get a partner. the last one to get a seat. the last one to get a group. i have to go alone for recess. go home alone. do everything alone! i really cannot stand it anymore. its sad. not to have any friends. i envy you all. everyone. who has friends. i just dont understand why i cant have one! it happens everyday. and im starting to want to change schools. this is not what i want for my first year in secondary school. im not being invited to a single party. no one calls me to go out. no one! why does this happen to me. i dont understand. i tried being nice. patient. but it all still remained the same! i will break down one day. and even if i disappear from earth. NO ONE would even notice and bother. im really sad. you said you wanted to quit their group. but i dont think that you really mean it. maybe you're just saying that to make me feel better. but its not. you look very happy with them. every matter you go to her. and im left out once again. the feeling hurts. this is not a piece of crap im typing. im serious. and it very sad. im very sad. i want to have a best friend. whom i can talk to confidently. a person who doesnt want to act 'cool' infront of people. it unbearable! some days i didnt want to come to school. but i thought of the positive side of who will be happy to see me. that thought help me for awhile. but soon later, i just lost it. no one was talking to me. i was sitting all alone by myself for and hour or two. during games i am always the last to get choosen. and during games where you had to be in pairs. i would be the one without a pair. people just dont to care about me. they seem so. but actually they dont. its that simple.