i feel so horrible right now. just cried for an hour. i stared at the ceiling for the whole evening. this is not called emo-ing. its called trying to calm down. what's the problem with everybody. everyday its like the same things happens over and over and over again. oh ___ it already.
i managed to take the 6.40 bus today. sat beside sashni. we reached school and sashni threw up at the bus stop. so i gave her my whole packet of tissue and her father came to pick her up. i went into school at 7.29 on the dot, almost got booking. it was so empty. no one was beside my class. the sec 2's had elearning at home. aiya, there's nothing special about today -.- the boring stuff.
went for training. my legs were so heavy. i couldn't run. played doubles, paired up with camillia cause were going for the cheers doubles competition. wth, i didn't even know i was going to pair with her. they just choose their own partners without me knowing. damn ____ angry luh. i tell her how to play doubles properly, she show me attitude. think you so big uh. look at yourself in the mirror first. i wanted to cry in school. i ran alone. i ate alone. i drank alone. i did everything alone. and i thought badminton was suppose to be fun. consolling me didn't even help at all.coach was telling everyone about team work. there's no team work at all. sian. i was sleeping during de-brief. so tired. now my stomach hurts from that exercise. im damn comfused now. why does it always happen to me. i thought i had a friend. i did, for 2 days. then i had no friends. its all rubbish.
no mood to blog, having the flu bug now ):